I feel like I did everything I wanted to do at my job. I know there is something better out there for me. I feel like my skills and intelligence greatly exceed my job. And, to be honest, I feel like the job is beneath me. Even though I love my job and the people I’ve met there, I know it isn’t really something I want to do long term.
I want to do something that I feel would put my skills and intelligence to great and proper use. And, of course, I want to do something I love. One of my worst fears is going into a job I won’t like. I used to always hear so many people around me, including some of my family members, complaining about how much they hate their jobs and the people on it. I never wanted to be that person.
I also want to do something where I can work on my own terms and be my own boss. I just really hate having people telling me what to do. Not that I have anything against anybody I work with. It’s just that it gives me an uneasy feeling.
So, since I know I want a job that I will love and will be something I have the skills for and something where I can make my own moves, I asked myself, “Well, what do you like to do?”
I love reading and I think I love writing even more. So, I thought, “What can you do that involves reading and writing?” Suddenly, it hit me. BLOGGING! Long before I thought about blogging, I thought about making YouTube videos. I just knew I had all these things I wanted to say and get off my chest. But, then, I thought that I wouldn’t be very good of a speaker. Since I have social anxiety, I don’t speak to many people and I don’t get to say what’s on my mind very much.
Also, I have a very hard time forming the words I want to say when I get ready to speak in front of an audience. I figured that out through high school and college speech classes. I didn’t want to get on camera and forget things I want to say or take long pauses to think of what I want to say and I didn’t want to take all that time editing because I feel like I will be doing a lot of it. So, I eventually passed on that (I still really want to make YouTube videos, though. Maybe I’ll try it some time on a later date).
On the other hand, blogging is perfect! (And is as close to YouTubing as I will get for now.) Blogging involves a ton of writing and reading. I will read about all the topics I think about writing beforehand. I will also read many other blogs. The best part about this is I don’t have to answer to anyone! I can call my own shots. I can write and read about whatever I feel like.
This will be the perfect way to express myself without feeling like I’m facing a crowd. Writing about these things will be a perfect way for me to spread my thoughts and messages to many people. I was a little skeptic when I first thought of blogging as a job. But after some reading about blogging and seeing many other successful bloggers, I knew it was possible. So, I decided to put forth the effort in trying to learn as much as I can about blogging and gathering together many things I feel I should write about.
I titled my blog, “My Sparking Thoughts”, because every post will be about the things I think about and sometimes I feel like they hit me like a spark. My blog won’t be centered around one specific topic. I will be writing about many different topics and most of them will be about things I notice in our society that I feel should be addressed, but doesn’t get addressed enough.
Most of my posts will be titled as questions because, usually, whenever I think of something, it comes to me as a question first. I will also present them as questions because I want to hear other people’s answers to these questions as well. I think that will make for a very good conversation.
I’m very excited to start my blog and share my thoughts with as many people as I can. Welcome to my blog! I hope you all enjoy what I have to say.